Bellatrix remained sitting on her bed and reluctantly watched Draco leave her bedroom. She hated being alone. She let out a long sigh and felt tears burning in her eyes as she did so. She had no idea what time it was, but she assumed that it must be late already.
Knowing that no one was in her bedroom to see her cry, Bellatrix blincked and let the hot tears roll down her cheeks and fall, landing on her thighs. She felt like she hated herself again, she felt like she wanted to slice open her own skin and watch the life drain out of her.
"How could I have failed my master to these extreams?!" Bellatrix sobbed to herself, no longer caring that she was talking to herself. "How could the thought of even starting sex with my master this morning cross my mind!? How could I have let James so easily get to me at the meeting today?! I know I'm better than him! He's just filth! Nothing but scum! I need to teach him a lesson he won't soon forget! I need to curse him! I need to torture h